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This is going to be a short one because I forgot to note the details down for this one and its been a few days, which means I don't remember half the shit I did.

The Dibiase server is on a roll with decent samples, but because I have my hand in multiple pots and also have my boring personal life to deal with, I don't always have time to jump in - even when I really want to. For session #25, the gods gave me some reprieve by way of plaguing poor Dibi with internet issues, causing him to postpone not just once (which I missed), but twice, giving me just about a day and a half to try to flip this session's samples which were provided by the talented Marques Murray. They came in the form of several stems from one of his upcoming sample packs. While all the stems were nice in their own way, I immediately zeroed in on one of the piano stems and a kind of reverby siren/alarm stem.

With the piano, and with any piano sequence I'm sampling, I played around with various chops and pitches until I found chops (and a combination of chops) that I liked - I know, really specific of me... but that's how it goes with highly subjective creative processes. Sometimes I'll auto-chop across 16 pads, mess around, realize I hate all of it, clear the chops, then just put down random ones, realize I hate all of it, clear the chops, then kind of do half-random chops (usually on note transients, or sometimes a little before to create the illusion of some kind of instrument articulation or whatever) and eventually, when the smoke cloud clears and the dust settles, I end up with something - and not always a good something. In any case, since I was limited on time and wanted to keep it relatively simple, I got my pattern down and moved on to get some drums down for a basic rhythm.

Sound selection for drums is one of those things where I always get fucking stuck and fatigued and I've been promising myself to do two main things about this. The easier task is starting to note down what pack a given one shot is from when I find one I really like. I can't count how many times I've been down the rabbit hole of digging through sample packs, finding a sample I really dig, and then never being able to find it again. Once I've got them noted down, I'll ideally move them into kind of a makeshift pack of "favorites" for easy access. The harder, but more rewarding task, is cooking up my own, custom drum samples through a combination of synthesis, stacking existing samples, and leveraging my Zoom H5 to get some field recordings to add character to them. I've set a realistic goal of 10 kicks and 10 snares and I'm going to try to get this done relatively soon.

With the kick, snare, and hat laid down in a simple pattern, I moved on to checking out the siren samples. Chopped them up, like you'd expect - but this time, because the notes were so far apart, I just chopped on each note with the end goal being to play with pitches and FX until I found something that fit melodically and thematically. If a sample's melodic elements are arranged more densely, there's a lot of potential for strange off-rhythms and stuff that you may not be planning for going in, but when its like... one note every 1/2 bar or more, I treat it more like you would a keygroup or using a sample in chromatic mode and playing it like an instrument. I decided to make the siren a sort of eerie, ghostly sound, and it frankly ended up sounding like some shit from an old sci-fi movie, which explains the title and cover art I ended up with.

For the bass, I picked one of the standard MPC keygroups, limited myself to a higher register (i.e. we're not going for big, fat sub bass here), and noodled around until I felt like I had something I like that matched the vibes.

After going back and forth with a friend on some advice he offered, I fixed a couple of things up. The big one was making the siren sequence I laid down more subtle - at least on its first appearance. For this, I just automated the volume for that 4-bar sequence so that it started low, slowly swelled (but still peaked relatively low - it didn't swell up to 0dB), then brought it leading into the last 1/4 bar and quickly swelled it once more. On its second appearance, its at its steady, full volume as it was set in the mixer insert.

I still wanted to add something more because I just don't know when to fucking stop, so I grabbed the PT-01 Scratch, blew the dust off of that shit while pretending I was Indiana Jones or something, slapped one of the little 7" scratch records I have in there, and recorded some scratches. Well, a lot of scratches. I'm not afraid to say that I suck at scratching. The first scratch sequence heard on this track was edited slightly to get the timing better matched up with the beat. The second one - you know, the one that sounds awful - was all me, baby! 

Little bit of Air Flavor Pro sprinkled on top to dust things up a bit and voila: another subpar track - lol
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A waveform that represents a song. There is a line going across the bottom third of it that the playhead rides across when the track is playing. Below that line are little avatars of users who left a comment on the song, their avatars appearing at roughly the timestamp where they left their comment. There is a concentration of avatars under the second half of the waveform and that's what this post is about.

If you don't know, this is Soundcloud's little waveform image that they generate for each uploaded track.

Listeners can leave comments at specific timestamps to call out things they like about a track as they hear them. Sometimes, they leave the comment near the end of the track because they've listened to the whole thing and are now leaving their praise... in the case of my STBB950 entry, these are all comments on my second beat in the track.

I worked on sequence A for a few days (in my usual 20-30 min bursts, with the occasional 1-2 hour session). While Sequence A came out really decent in a technical sense (good chops, chop arrangements, dope bassline, good FX processing, etc), it's really not... me. Stylistically, it's not what I like to do and it's not the kind of sounds or vibes I gravitate toward. I like Sequence A, but I don't love Sequence A.

Sequence B, on the other hand - the comment-heavy side of the track - is what I like. I love the grimy, the filthy. I like bleak vibes, minor keys, dissonance and discord. Sequence B was a rush job because I had put so much time into Sequence A and I had planned this entry to be a two-parter from the start, I was nearly out of time, so I went with my instincts to push me through the process and land me with something half-decent. In a technical sense, Sequence B is absolutely not what Sequence A is - I simply didn't put the same careful thought, or the same amount of time, into making it. It's just what came naturally to me, with some light processing to have it sound decent... and it got more attention than Sequence A, which I poured most of my effort into.

My 949 track - the one that gave me my first STBB win - was the same deal. I spent several days trying to construct a track by forcing my way in a direction that just wasn't me. I like to submit evening before deadline for STBB because the deadline is morning local time here and I hate doin shit in the morning. The day leading into that evening for 949, I had scrapped what I had been working on and just did my fuckin thing. In a few short hours, I came up with something better than what I had to show for the last several days.

My first instinct is to over-complicate shit. When I was doing tech work, I had a tendency to over-engineer, to try to cover every imaginable base and think way too far out ahead of what  was actually needed. Apparently, it wasn't just something to keep an eye on in my professional life.

It's a matter of identifying when I'm doing Sequence A when I should be doing Sequence B.

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Somehow, I pocketed a win for #949... ok, "somehow." Even I have to take a break from my self-abuse and recognize when I drop the occasional banger. Proud of that one, especially because the source material has been flipped multiple times by Actual Producers(tm) and I still managed to pull pieces of it together into something new.

For #950, I decided to force everyone to use some track I like for a change: some dusty, crusty, musty old Giallo shit - and one track from Mexico, that was suggested to me by someone that fits the general vibe/character and sounded really nice. I tried to pay some extra attention to make sure of two things:

1. The sample sources were as drumless as possible to make things easier. Stem separation is nice, but you know what's nicer? Not taking chunks out of the fuckin surrounding elements that you actually wanna use.
2. There was a decent variety of moods/vibes so folks who took up the challenge could zero in on the kinda shit they like.

I also allowed all outside samples with the stipulation that content from the source tracks absolutely must be the backbone of the track - beyond that, creative freedom in regards to sample use.

Consulted with JoaGymshoe for some special rule ideas and I can't remember if it was my idea or his (99% sure it was his, but I liked it), and ended up also requesting that competitors add some kind of unusual element to their track that the listener wasn't expecting. Same level of freedom for this, though - all that mattered is that the listener didn't see it coming. Jarring vocal shot? Massive tempo transition? A layer of tortured screams? Make it half a bar? One, two, eight bars; idgaf - just surprise me.

I was actually drawn to the Mexican track because I'm a sucker for a nice saxophone progression and a nice saxophone progression is the entire core of the joint. What can I say? The spirit is willing, but the flesh (mainly the ears) do be weak. The Epic Sax Guy era wasn't just my era, it was all of ours. Forever and ever. Anyway, I got to chopping  on the 404MKII and once I was done, moved on to tapping around to see how I could glue the pieces back together. Satisfied with the main progression for Sequence A, I recorded the individual chops to the MPC and once I had them there, arranged them in the piano roll. I thought it felt a little dry and boring on repeat like that, so I slapped a nice, subtle delay on it to give it a little extra rhythm and movement and it ended up sounding kinda dreamy.

I spent some time looking through drums and found some nice choices - one of those kicks that's short and punchy, with a transient/top end that kinda sounds like a basketball or something to cut through the mix, a nice moderately hard-but-short snare hit so it's present but not overwhelming or taking focus away from the other elements, and a decent loosely closed hi hat. The beat is simple, maybe you could describe it as a relaxed, cruising down the highway but not in the passing lane type of deal. I especially like how the jazzy hat pattern came out - it's just the one sample, played with 16-levels turned on to give it some feeling and extra rhythm.

Because the original is so pleasant and because my cookup of it was turning out to be really chill and smooth (what? sometimes I'm easily influenced), I didn't wanna sully it up with some obvious synth bassline. I went digging through my collection of MPC keygroups for a nice, realistic bass and found one in the F9 Instruments expansion. I'm pretty sure it was the Jazz Bass. At this point, I've got a 4-bar loop that's comin together nicely so I let it loop another 30 or 40 times while I noodle around looking for an equally smooth bassline that stood out to me. I kept the notes near the bottom of the register for this keygroup, but not too low - maybe an octave above where it starts to sound like ass. I usually sit at the octave right before that for bass because I like the rumble and the added presence of a deep and imposing bass sound, but I wanted the "real instrument" aspect to shine through here and... mission accomplished, if I do say so myself.

With only 4 bars down, I decided I needed to direct some much-needed attention to varying it up a bit . It was feeling to m like you were kinda endlessly waiting for it to resolve and it just never did. For this, I did a couple things. First, I went diving for more sax samples and found the perfect way to resolve the end of the loop in one of the longer chops I had on the 404. I tweaked the start and end points of that pad and recorded it to a pad in the MPC. Back on the MPC, I copied over the 4-bar sequence and fixed up the copy to use the newly added sax chop. Playing them back together in order was... well... music to my fuckin ears. I never made any promises to not use cliches. While listening back to the now 8-bar loop (two 4-bar sequences), some of the drum placement made my eye twitch. I picked up the habit of recording drums without quantization on a while back and while it does lead to more human feeling drum sequences, it also leads to some really awful placement sometimes. I popped back into the original sequence to shift the drum hits around a bit in the last of the 4 bars and while listening back, I was tapping 4.1. After a few rounds of this, I was like "goddamn i like how this sounds on repeat). The MPC has a nice feature where you can copy events between tracks or sequences. It's a versatile little option where you can basically say "I want to copy bar 3 to this sequence starting at bar 1, and I want to make 4 copies of it." Makes things super easy sometimes in this kind of context. I went ahead and did this once for the original 4-bar sequence and once more for the second one that resolves the loop, except for the latter sequence, I used the other 4th bar for bars 1-3, then copied the bar that resolves the whole loop for the end. That sax sequence 5 times in a row would be way too much. One thing I don't love is in the original sequence, you get the last bar, and then you get that same bar 4 more times. If you're not paying attention, it almost feels like you're just stuck and the song will never progress any further. Annoying, but whatever. I left it.

This first smooth jazz sequence felt like ti was missing something. Not something big, but just like... a dusting of powdered sugar over the top. What could be more appropriate than a nice electric piano - a family of instruments that has a stronger hold on me than even a nice sax sequence. I pulled up Electric on the MPC, found a preset I like, tweaked it up a bit, and this was probably the single most time consuming process for this track because I am absolutely not a piano or keyboard player by any means. I do a lot of poking and messing around when it comes to stuff like this and while I have a decent understanding of basic music theory (and I mean basic), I certainly don't know enough to be able to just belt out a beautiful chord or note progression without putting a whole lot really awful sounding shit through the speakers first. I started with chords that fit the key and when I had those placed on the piano roll, I got to jazzing it up by breaking some of the chords up into note progressions that played an alternate but fitting rhythm to the beat as it was. I kept the electric piano low and panned it off to the right so it was just there, accenting the melody as a supporting character. It came together really pleasantly - especially in those 4-bar loops where that one bar repeats 4 times.

While listening to the second 4-bar loop, with that sax chop that resolves the whole 8 bars, I wanted to do something different with the bass, so I pulled the piano roll back up and fixed up the bassline so that it follows the sax melodically. This took the bass itself a little high, but it fit like a glove. Good shit! I also doubled back to the two repeating loops and alternated the bass pattern for both to give it a little more variation.

Until now, I had designs on one of the source tracks that has a lot of dark, kind of sinister piano progressions in it. Admittedly, I flipped this track a while back into a nice, but kind of uninteresting trap beat. I chopped it up and proceeded to spend several hours trying to make it work in a way I was satisfied, but no luck. No matter how I arranged the chops, or how I pitched em, or what FX I threw on em, it just wasn't happening. Sometimes, you just gotta say "fuck this" and walk away - a lesson I've been begrudgingly learning for years, and will probably continue to learn for the rest of my days. On this day, I acted on it and bitterly ditched the piano loop. I had a whole idea in my head that the unusual element in my track was going to be an incredibly jarring aca/vocal shot of Lil Fame from M.O.P. from one of my favorite songs (What The Fuck) where, all pissed off, he goes, "What the fuck are you lookin for?" and maybe a couple extra Billy Danze shots, and that would transition the track into a +10BPM tempo boost (give or take) and into an aggressive, gritty boom bap joint. Alas... it wasn't meant to be n shit.

Of the 4 source tracks I dropped for the battle, I was familiar with 2 of them. One, as I mentioned, was the piano joint, which I had flipped before, that crashed me out. The other was one with this really overwhelming organ sequence that I love (can you guess that organs are yet another instrument that I'm weak to?). It's not a dark sequence, though - in fact, it sounds kind of triumphant. I considered transitioning into a more positive sounding, but still aggressive vibe, but regardless of what I was going to end up doing vibes-wise, the overarching decision was already made for me: the organ chops were where I would be throwing my attention.

For this, I just chopped out the entire sequence on the 404, recorded into the MPC, and chopped up there. Once I had the chops down, I started hitting pads looking for a pattern that jumped out at me. While what I had, in its original form, was workable (very workable, tbqh), I was still mad about not being able to take the beat to a grimy place with the piano. I chose a base sample out of the bunch to form a sort of melodic anchor for the new vibe and, out of bitterness alone, I started pitching the organ chops around. A lot of these chops didn't take well to pitch changes, whether melodically (because pitching chord samples is so often just... like... house music-coded? I'm sure there's some music theory way to convey why this happens) or in terms of character/timbre (where the chord sounds fine at its original pitch, but going up or down even a single semitone brings out too much of the top or low end, throwing the whole sample off balance). A couple of the chops, though, took very well to being pitched. They didn't need much moving around, maybe a max of 1-3 semitones up or down - I just wanted other pads to feel more minor-key, sinister, bleak, dark, whatever in relation to the pad I chose as my foundation. That pad, by the way, has kind of this... swell in the middle of it. Its a bit of a volume swell, but it also feels like a bit of a swell in its stereo width. While it fit the beat well in terms of tempo, I hit the pad again in a bit of an irregular spot to where that swell was throwing things off. As soon as I noticed, I copied that pad over and pushed the start point on it up so that on that secondary hit, the swell matched up with the rhythm. Nailed it on the first try, too - no adjusting, here, bitch!

With time running out and me getting bored of the project overall (and me getting tired of recounting the whole fuckin process here, in this post, too), I pushed through, added a higher-up bassline using the same Jazz Bass from before; nothing fancy here, and the bass wasn't even constant. It was just placed periodically to add a tense kind of vibe. I also slapped a couple of FX on the organ mixer insert that really transformed the chops. First, I added a tremolo to it - no sync, I just eyeballed (earballed?) it until it was like... off-rhythm enough to where it was kind of phasing into and out of the rhythm, almost like an irregular rhythm that loops on odd-numbered bars. There's a word for this shit and it's escaping me. Next,I laid it up in a reverb that kind of gave it a shimmer. It really did transform the sound from this like, one big block of organ chord with little to no variation, into this constantly trembling, foreboding deal with a warm, sickly "glow."

To add on to the tension, I wanted to bring that electric piano back in, but this time instead of being buried in the beat with only the tines and a bit extra poking out, I wanted to make its presence very known. Once again, like the bass, I just wanted to pepper the vibe and not overdo it, so I just laid down a few descending notes that fit the overall vibe and melody - it only appears once every 4 bars, panned off to the right a bit and giving an extra bit of tension and foreboding.

At this point, it's 11PM and earlier in the day, I got sidetracked by some take-home case study thing related to a job I had applied for, so I'm just rushing to wrap this bitch up and put a bow on it... but there's one thing missing. The surprise! The "unusual element" - I had given "a jarring vocal shot signaling a mood shift" as an example, but I knew that's what I was going to end up doing when I was writing down the special rule. Since the M.O.P. shot was going to be way too aggressive for this much more laid back, sinister vibe, I started racking my brain for what I could pull in to serve the purpose of a jarring transition, and then it hit me. It's really like it was handed to me from the other side of the veil or whatever. There's a classic Redman (my favorite emcee of all time) joint called Tonight's Da Night. In it, he starts with a few bars of these smooth lyrics before the record scratches and Hurricane G (RIP, she was a fuckin real one) cuts in and goes "Yo, yo, Redman, man. What the fuck, man? Get the fuck off that... punk smooth shit, man. Get with that rough shit, man! You know how we do!" with a bunch of dudes basically echoing her disapproval in the background. Considering Sequence A is textbook "punk smooth shit," how could I have ever landed on a differnet vocal shot for the transition? I found the track on my hard drive, ran it through UVR5 to isolate the vocals, recorded just her interlude, and... Reggie Noble, please forgive me,  but I cut out Redman's name since I'm not using one of his acas or anything and it would've been weird leaving it in.

What I forgot about is the fact that the drum track where I assigned her vocal shot(s) to had an instance of Flavor Pro on it and when I first heard the Hurricane G transition in context, it was filthy. Kinda distorted. Like she got right up into the microphone to put a fucking end to this punk smooth shit once and for all. I loved it.

I wrapped it up, recorded the final output, hit ChatGPT to generate the SC cover image, and called it a night. Named it Gemini because there's a Mobb Deep line that has stuck with me for over a decade now where Havoc goes, "I'm a Gemini, bitch, that mean I flip with the weather." A fitting name for a track with two faces like this one.

Another one in the bag! I really gotta get better at not spreading my process out over an entire fuckin week just for a 2 minute track. Maybe next time.


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Up to my old tricks again... and by that, I mean spending 4-5 days consciously heading in an interesting, experimental direction with a pile of samples I chopped and pitched and abused only to turn around the day before the beat battle deadline and go, "Oh, no! I hate it!" and then flip the source material into something relatively "safe" and conventional.

Without wanting to spend too much time on the "failed experiment" portion of this flip, we were provided with 3 movie soundtrack joints. One from Taxi Driver (which had some fun, jazzy shit goin on), one from Eyes Wide Shut (which had some cool, creepy male vocals that I think were reversed to make it sound more demonic, considering the movie it was for), and a pretty well-known, heavily-sampled Quincy Jones joint called Aftermath from a film called The Slender Thread. The latter is possibly best known for being used for a Pharaoh Monche track called Behind Closed Doors (a classic banger, tbh).

I usually try to avoid source material that's been heavily sampled mainly because its already been done, and often likely much better than I could do it. Considering there are like 10 tracks listed on WhoSampled that have used the Quincy Jones track, I originally decided to sidestep it. I zeroed in on a very short low brass hit in the Taxi Driver joint that I liked, but wished it was a little longer so I chopped it in the SP-404 MKII, flipped it to Ensemble mode (which allows you to change pitch and tempo independently), and slowed it down to about 65% of its original tempo. Sometimes in this scenario, the sample comes out sounding... bad. Metallic, artifacty, and very obviously slowed down. Because this sample was so short, that was thankfully not the case. I then copied it to several other pads and pitched the copies around so that I could maybe make a core melody out of it. Another potential pitfall that I've come across is when you've copied the same sample multiple times and pitched the copies, sometimes it very obviously sounds like its just the same sample pitched up or down from the original... and another stroke of luck: it didn't! This was also probably due to the short length of the sample. Satisfied with my insane luck so far, I got to arranging the hits over a few bars to get some structure down.

At this point, the short little brass hit by itself sounded OK, but I wanted it to have some force, so I pulled up Sub Factory on the MPC and started flipping through the 808 presets. I knew that I didn't necessarily want the pitch envelope to be too tight because I wanted an actual kick drum with a bit of thump to it keeping the rhythm for me, so I auditioned a bunch of presets with and without their pitch envs enabled and landed on one that I liked. At this point, I've got several hits of this brass sample giving me a bouncy melody, with a short 808 burst under it to give it some authority. From the very start to this moment - that's digging through the source tracks and finding the sample I wanted to use, chopping it out, sculpting it, arranging it into a melody and fine tuning the 808 how I wanted it, etc - I'm about 4 days in (I work slow, and in short bursts: sue me). I start looking around the source tracks to see if there's anything I can pair it with and I'm getting increasingly discouraged. I also realize that the whole joint, overall, is sounding a little too close to Mobb Deep's Put Em In Their Place. I step back and give it a couple hours to kinda slow cook in the back of my head and come back with the decision that I fuckin hate it, it's terrible, and I need to dramatically change directions.

This is where I started looking at that Quincy Jones track a lot harder. I originally avoided it out of habit, but goddamn it its no wonder it's been sampled so many times... it captures some of what I love most about Hip Hop: it's gritty, it sounds old and dusty, it sounds mean and sinister. Even the original, which is a very slow-moving and tense track... I wanna go outside and fight random strangers while it plays in the background. I throw caution and habit to the wind and say, "fuck it - we're doin this shit," and start pulling pieces out of it.

The main goal from here on out was to come up with a compelling, gritty Hip Hop joint (a la that neo Boom Bap shit you expect from Griselda), using Quincy Jones's Aftermath, and to not make it sound like anything else that previously sampled it. The excitement instantly returned to my creative process and I got to it. I slapped one of my favorite gritty Croup snare samples onto a pad on the MPC and copied it over to another pad. On the first pad, I put a fairly aggressive decay on it to shorten it and take some of the air out of it - almost like it was a rimshot with the same characteristics as the original. I found two nice kick samples - one that was a little flat, and one with a little thump to it. I also went looking for a couple of closed hi hats, one slightly more open and rattly than the other. I wanted to alternate between each of the drum shots - so like, the lightened up snare on the 2, the original gritty snare on the 4. A double kick hit after each snare hit, but the flatter kick immediately followed by the thump. One hi hat hit on each quarter note, but alternating between the two. This sort of thing gives a track some subtle variation and kind of an extra groove/bounce and I've used the technique successfully before.

Now that I've got these drum samples figured out and tweaked properly, it's time to get to the really fun shit: chopping the sample and deciding how I'm going to birth this monster. I take the obvious pieces - the discordant piano chord that kicks off the whole track, the shimmery chimes, the multiple hit of the... I think its an oboe? Its low, and gritty. Those are the pieces that end up forming what I consider the verse sequence. I pitch the piano chord down a good bit (and include a good bit of the pad-like string sound that tails it), then move on to the chimes (and, naturally, some of the pad-like string sound that tails it) which I pitch down, but keep a couple semitones higher than than the piano chop so that it sounds grimy and dissonant against it, and arrange them in the piano roll. Once I'm satisfied, I double it up to be 8 bars. For the chorus, or B sequence, I found a kind of bleak, depressing string sequence which sounds even more grim when it's pitched down. The whole B sequence is just the 4 bar loop, mostly untouched (except for the FX that made it filthy). I double this up to 8 bars as well.

Going back to the verse sequence, I knew that I wanted it to play 16 bars at a time, and that this was a beat more suited to have vocals over it, so I wanted to strike a balance between "repetitive and boring" and "too busy for vocals" so I recorded my 8 bar sequence back into the 404 (disabling busses 3 and 4 - this is super important for resampling if you want to preserve the original sound). I landed on using the Scatter FX module on the 404 just to kind of break up the monotony - which is a cheap and easy way to mangle up a sample in pleasant ways. I only triggered it around when the chimes hit and it ended up being subtle, but helped a good bit with giving a bit of sonic variation.

From here, I laid down the drums (which came out great, as far as I'm concerned, with that alternating sample technique I mentioned earlier), went back to Sub Factory and found (and slightly tweaked) one of the 808 presets I liked (Spinneresque was the one, I think?), laid down the 808 pattern for both sequences, slapped one instance of Air Flavor Pro on the master output (I think I used one of the presets labeled VHS, but I disabled the pitch wobble because that shit is often way too much on an entire track) and took down the vinyl noise by a lot, a VCA compressor on the end of the master chain to level things out and make it nice and loud, and et voila.

A grimy, gritty, Buffalo-style joint to ride around on a cold winter day with the ratchet in your lap and maybe a body in the trunk.

This track scored me the win for this week on STBB, which is pretty dope. I was up against 11 other entries and while the turnout for STBB is apparently fairly quiet lately compared to past battles, the submissions were broadly pretty damn decent as you should expect from that crowd. I'll happily take the win - and I fully expect it to be a rare case, so I'm happy just to have one under my belt.

Since I was this week's winner, next week's challenge becomes my problem so I, like any man, did the only thing I know... IT'S GIALLO TIME, BABY. I picked 4 nice, old source tracks (3 from Italy, 1 from Mexico) and tried to come up with some decent rules without boxing any of the entrants in too hard. Looking forward to the submissions for #950.

 

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Dibia$e came back from a bit of a hiatus for his 24th flip challenge, tossing up a sample from Low Key's upcoming Nostalogy sample pack for his Discord server to mangle and shape into something new and that brought me out of my own mini dibiflip hiatus to jump in on this one. I have this thing where sometimes, I just don't dig the provided samples for a challenge and I'll pass on it, or I might load them up and play around and if I'm not getting a spark, I'll just ditch it. It's happened with the last couple of STBBs and a couple of dibiflips before that, but this sample was pretty nice so I got to work. This was my first chance to actually make something with both the MKII and the MPC since I updated to the 3.x firmware and had been spending time getting acquainted. There's still a long way to go for me on that front, but I'm comfortable enough to fight my way out with what I know.

To start with, I laid out a bank with chops from the first half of the provided sample - this bank basically had chords and some sustained melodic sounds. For the second half, there were enough individual piano notes that it felt suitable to have a separate bank for those. I noodled around for a while and came up with an initial sequence that I liked well enough, but after some time I decided I wanted to really transform the source material. I popped into that second bank and just reverse the entirety of it and start noodling around in there, eventually coming up with my A section, which is what the track starts with. From here, it was a matter of recording the pattern and, once satisfied, reconfiguring the A and B FX busses to run consecutively so I could add some first-mile FX to it. I landed on Ko-Da-Ma (an MKII synced delay effect that sort of uses a send and sounds very pleasant in a lot of different use cases) to fill the empty space between my chops, which I then ran through To-Gu-Ro (a sort of stopper/tremolo/gate type of effect on the MKII that I often use very subtly to give a slight pitch warble and very mildly age a sample - I literally have the depth setting set to 1; that's how subtle). From here, I recorded one run of the pattern into an Audio track in the MPC.

At this point, I decided to lay down drums so I picked a few samples and got the kick and snare recorded. This ended up being one of those situations where I just couldn't find a hat sample that I liked or that sat well in the mix, so I did the sacrilegious thing and ditched the idea of using any hats entirely. Honestly, the ends of those reversed samples were doing a pretty OK job of kind of simulating the rhythmic tap of a hat,  especially with the delay present, so I was OK with the decision.

With the melodic core of the track laid down, and the drums placed under it, I wanted to get a bassline in. The way this track was sounding, a modern synthy or 808-style bass didn't feel right, so I pulled up a nice electric bass keygroup from the F9 expansion. I wanted to go for kind of a sloppy vibe, so I thought up a decent bass progression and slapped some notes in slightly out-of-place spots, and made a couple of notes feel off melodically, too.

After that, I landed on making heavy use of the MKII's Scatter effect to do a lot of the heavy lifting for A section variations, but my current A section - even with the delay applied - was still a little too empty for Scatter to do its job well. I recorded a variation pattern of the A section on the MKII where I used the same pattern of pads, but repeated them on rhythm to fill out the space - I also reenabled both of the previous effects because while I didn't really need the delay to fill the space, it did a really good job of giving individual piano notes within the sample some extra flair by repeating really nicely. I took the pattern and ran it into the MPC's sampler, doing the Scatter knob-twisting live until I was satisfied with the output. Got two variations recorded like this and they went into their own Audio tracks, and then their own sequences.

For a B section, I originally wanted to go back to the initial bank with the chords, but the difference between my original recorded pattern and what I was using for my A section was too jarring... and so was every other attempt I made using that bank. In the end, I returned to the bank with the reversed single notes and cooked up a new pattern. Followed the same process as before from there: record pattern into MPC, record a Scattered variation into the MPC (just one this time), lay down a new bassline using the same bass keygroup (I did one bass progression for each B section variation this time).

With everything ready to go, I did some last mile mixing, filtering, and EQing, slapped some limited Flavor Pros onto the tracks that needed them, slapped one final Flavor Pro on the master output to give me some vinyl filth on top, and arranged my sequences in the order I wanted them in Song Mode on the MPC. Once I felt like I was good to go, I simply played the entire song into FL Studio (I've moved to using the MPC in standalone exclusively) and recorded into Edison!


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Staying true to my apparent cadence of "Every Other Beat Battle," I skipped STBB944 - which asked for a trap beat - and I bitterly blame the god-fucking-awful Roll functionality on the SP-404 MKII (still luv u tho boo xo <3). Really, there are some things that the people who designed this thing clearly never actually tried to use. But enough about beat battles I didn't do, what about 945?

Came out alright, actually. This week's challenge was to take a 7 minute Loudspeaker Coloration Test record from JBL and... you know... do some shit with it. These types of records are a potential goldmine for samples - basically, its a stuffy guy from some distant, sepia-toned past talking about how your new speakers should sound, and then playing a sequence - usually an isolated instrument - so you can hear for yourself. This specific old gem had a ton of material to work with: drums, piano, plucked and bowed acoustic bass, an oboe, a flute (two different flutes, maybe? can't remember), you get the idea.

I spent the first day playing around with the drum break sequence and, while that was fun and I got some really off-the-wall shit out of the MKII's groove function combined with the drum loop I hacked out of the sequence, it wasn't the direction I wanted to head in so I jettisoned the drums (they're still there, saved to a pad and probably destined to be forgotten, but whatever).

I landed on the piano for my melodic backbone - like God intended - pitching it up pretty hard at +6 semitones. Even though I had those pads set to use the Ensemble stretch algo (the most reliable for me for samples like this), that much of a pitch jump did make it a bit warbly. Sometimes that's great if that's what you're going for, sometimes it doesn't really matter - it was thankfully the latter this time, because the Backing algo made the piano sound like a robot trying to hum a nice song to comfort itself while it died a slow, painful, solitary death. I chopped the piano up, laid out the chops into a 4-bar sequence, and in true _bug0ut form I wasn't thrilled with the result, so I adjusted some start/end points on the individual chops to let the track breathe a bit so it wasn't just constantly piano noise, and ended up with a couple of fairly decent 4-bar loops I decided would be good as the core of the verse sections. From there, copied those sequences to new pads and laid drums under them on those new pads, then copied those sequences to new pads in preparation for... my accent chops.

I had originally chosen the violin sequence for my melodic accent chops, so I went in on the violin sequence, pitching it around and chopping (for this, I just auto-marked it into 16 chops). I had to get a bit more surgical from there, pitching individual pads around to try to seek out something that would support the piano melody, but for the life of me I couldn't get the violin sound to sit nicely in the mix with the piano. As much as I love a violin sample, this was a little too screechy and jarring (though it was pleasant enough on its own, to be fair), so I ditched the violin entirely and dug up the flute from the source track.

The flute sequence was incredibly short and repetitive - the reason I initially ignored it outright - but it turned out to be kind of perfect for the purpose of accenting the melody. Since it was just 4 short sequences, each one identical to the last, I hacked out just the first iteration of it and got to work. In order to get as much mileage out of the flute, I was going to have to chop and rearrange it, and then work out some one-shot FX using those chops. It ended up being really handy in place of a riser; kind of a warning that a transition was coming as we're moving out of the A/verse sequence. There are two main piano loops (mostly similar, just a double hit of one of the chops at the end of the second loop), but I copied one of those piano patterns to a new pad and laid some really nice flute chops at the end of it to signal that we were moving into my B/chorus pattern... which didn't exist, yet. Fuck. OK, though, focus on the flute, dickhead - you're in the middle of that. I wanted to get more out of the flute than just using a few dry chops, so I took a really nice little flutter and slapped the MKII's Cloud Delay on it, cranking it just about half way (50-50) which gave it a nice, sort of granular shimmer. While that was nice, I wanted to squeeze a little more out of it so I reversed it and got a really pleasant sound that I could use as an FX one shot... but where?

Ah, yes... we need a B sequence. At this point, I flipped back over to the bank where I had my piano chops laid out and I started tapping around to see if I could find something that contrasted with the A sequence. I prefer not to make any use of already-used chops in my B sequences if possible, but I'll occasionally allow for it a bit if it ties the whole track together better. In this case, I found two unused piano chops that sounded nice together and changed up the feel of the track enough, but still stayed coherent enough with the A sequence melodically. Those two pads along just being tapped back and forth would have been a bit bland, so I pulled in one of the chops from the A sequence to kind of polish off the end of the first 2 bars of this B sequence, and another to lead us back into the A sequence at the end of the 4th bar. And here, at the end of the 4th bar, is where I found a proper place for my reversed, cloud delayed flute flutter to shine - as a trail back to the verse.

So at this point, I have 3 4-bar loops (one of them repeats) for my verse for a total of 16 bars, and I have 2 4-bar loops for my chorus, and I need a bassline. For the bass, I pulled out the trusty iPad, ran it over USB-C to the MKII, and started thinking of how to rig up a nice, fat bass. Thankfully, I picked up a couple of bass enhancing plugins on deep sale last month on the App Store called Mammoth and Gorilla from Aurora DSP. While these are seemingly marketed heavily toward heavy metal/djent-style bass sounds, they can sound good on anything in the low end. I've used them on anything from regular electric bass sounds to 808s and Gorilla specifically is a goldmine for fattening up your bass, giving it a bit of distortion to push up through the mix, and even laying some utter filth over the top to give it a gritty feel (Mammoth seems better for that layer of filth, but I use Gorilla heavily for the same). I fired up AUM, opened up a single audio channel, slapped Mela Classic on there and threw Gorilla in the FX node. While Mela Classic is a pretty nice, versatile synth, I often just use it for the available waveforms and use external FX modules to sculpt/shape and add movement. In this case, all I really wanted was a fat bass sound with a fast attack (but no clicking) and as little of a release as I could get away (also without clicking). Dialed in what I wanted in Gorilla (in fact, I think I just used one of the presets) and I had a really pleasant, fat bass - I don't know wtf you call it, but I call this kind of bass a Touch Bass because the signal is only coming through while you're touching that shit. This allows you to almost make your bassline another percussive instrument, like a tuned, secondary kick drum almost, where you're adding to the groove while leaving empty space between bass hits.

Now I've got my sequences laid out and I'm coming up on the more painful stretch of the MKII experience: recording. Recording with the MKII is a total departure of my ultra-spoiled prior experience with tools like the MPC Live 2 and FL Studio. When you have a piano roll and feature-rich automation tools, anything and everything can be as ephemeral as you want it. Don't like that MIDI note or its length? Drag it elsewhere, or longer, or shorter. Want the automation to kick in 1/16 earlier? Just fix it. I can't believe I even wrote "feature-rich automation" in the same fucking sentence as "MPC Live 2" (still luv u tho boo xo <3), but compared to the MKII... it is. Recording tracks from the MKII feels so... final. If you fuck up, you nuke the whole thing and start over. It's an experience that's entirely new to me and while I get super apprehensive even thinking about it, I'm trying to embrace it. People have been playing instruments and beating on DJ gear and samplers in live environments since long before I was born (instruments) or at least since I was in diapers (more modern electronic gear). What makes me better than them? Literally nothing. No, I'm serious, they all probably make better music than I could ever imagine.

That Billie Holiday joint I did for STBB943 was done all  live - I was twisting knobs and switching out FX while also trying to keep track of which sequence was playing and where I was in the sequence so I can trigger the next one. I wanted a bit of an easier time this go around, so I could maybe focus more on the live FX, so I decided to try out the Pattern Chain feature for the first time. After checking the manual, it was  pretty straightforward to set up a new chain  and then plug in the sequences in the order you wanted  to play them. I fired up FL Studio so I could record, set up my mixer slot, armed it for recording, etc, and started a couple of dry runs to get a feel for where I might want to use which FX modules and how far I wanted to crank the knobs. What the manual doesn't tell you, though, is that when you hit the [VALUE] button to, say, switch between CTRL1-3 and  CTRL4-6 so you can get at that Catch knob in the Cassette module, the button will ALSO set whatever pattern you have selected in the chain to be your next one, throwing everything out of whack. A couple dry runs became several, and then several  more, as I worked through both the minor snags of using Pattern Chaining, and then worked through the pain of being utter shit at doing anything live.

What ended up coming out in the end was, admittedly, a bit messy - which I'm starting to consider my signature style - but also, frankly, kind of catchy. I genuinely dig it for the most part and, more importantly, this was another pretty valuable learning experience and my second "completed" (I still cringe using that word because nothing ever feels truly finished to me) beat on the MKII.
 


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Skipped 942 and another battle that came up because I was entirely focused on getting to know the 404mk2.

This week was 943 and the rules were pretty simple:

Use the provided Billie Holiday track (The End of a Love Affair), keep it between 85-95BPM, and if you can't recognize it as a headnodder yourself, kindly drop tf out.

I spent the entire week fiddling with what was (and sort of is) still a kind of alien device. I've made a lot of headway in different spots and feature sets, but I've barely scratched the surface in other places. I managed to mine about 3 half-decent chop-ups and subsequent loops from those, but I was still unimpressed with myself, overall. Of those 3, none of them could really relate to each other - they sounded different, didn't mesh with each other melodically, and if I'm being honest, each one demanded different drumming styles which further divorced them. Two nights before the deadline, I returned to a section of the song that particularly resonated with me where it gets a little sad and dark and while I normally try to avoid pulling vocals into a chop just out of habit, I decided to take this as an opportunity to break with that mindset.

The vocals being chopped for this one originally say "Do they know? Do they care?" but I was able to chop it in just the right spot to give it the slight illusion of saying "Do you know?" by chopping on the first instance of "know" and allowing it to move to the second "do they." Additionally, if ordered the right way, it sounds like Billie is asking "Do you know? Do you Care? No." which was one of those happy accidents that I'm always chasing and hoping for. The resulting loop, with nothing added, had an infectious bop to it and I got that itch in the back of my head that said, "Yeah, this is the one." I was nodding my head to the dry, chopped loop. Self-disqualification averted, I guess.

From here, I spent the rest of the day (and a chunk of the next) slapping together a simple, thick bass patch in Serum 2 (goddamn, what an upgrade from Steve Duda and the Xfer team recently), and playing that into the Mk2 while the pattern played, realizing I didn't like the timing, deleting it, and going again (gonna need to consider finger drumming lessons soon, as the folks at /r/synthesizercirclejerk might suggest with a sneer). At some point, I also came up with the variation of the "do you know" loop where the "know" repeats to make it sound like she's answering her own question with an emphatic, "No. No no."

This is about where the brick wall is that I usually slam into face first. I have multiple chop sequences, none of them want anything to do with each other, one is a clear standout, and I'm down bad for a B sequence that I can't even imagine at the moment. By this point, its the evening before the deadline and I'm in my usual despondent state because I took way too fuckin long on the setup and now the time for the actual execution is slipping through my fingers. I grab dinner, get Squonk (my sidekick and parrot) out for some time out on his playstand, and spend the whole time racking my brain on what to do. While finishing dinner, my fiancee goes upstairs to bed and I decide its feast or famine. I'll give it 10 more minutes and if I can't come up with something, I'll call 943 a wash and just be happy that I learned a lot about actually leveraging the Mk2 in the process.

Lucky me, my head returned to a pretty simple and basic technique that every single YT video about flipping samples usually starts with and one that I often forget because it feels cheap and lazy... but I'll be goddamned if it doesn't really shine. There's a reason reversing a sample is one of the oldest tools of sample flipping - because it works. I took the entire "Do you know?" chop sequence, resampled it without the drums or bass, and just... flipped it. Magic sparks. It's not obviously garbled, whooshy nonsense like a sample reversal can sometimes be. It sounds like Billie is saying something entirely different, in a style that would have been decades ahead of her. The rhythm is unique and catchy. The melodic elements fit right in. It sounds like a chorus or a hook from maybe a kind of poppy Hip Hop song from the last couple decades.

The final step, and one that I hadn't even attempted yet other than to print a few chop sequences to share with friends to get their opinion, was to actually export/record the track. I have about 4 sequences I'm working with:
  1. The plain sample chop sequence which I want to use as an intro
  2. The main "Do you know?" sequence with drums and bass
  3. The variation of #2 where the "Know" repeats
  4. and the reversed chop sequence with the drums and bass from one of the other two (can't remember which offhand)

At this point, while fiddling around with FX, I've found a few really nice, interesting ways to twist the knobs between the sequences for transitions and I consider that maybe it's best that I attack this like a live set. I don't have a Pattern Chain set up - just the Mk2, hooked via USB to my laptop with FL Studio opened and armed for recording on a mixer slot. I channel the spirit of famed dickhead and tightass prick Bill O'Reilly and go, "Fuck it, we'll do it live." Hit record on FL, and start beating ont he pads and twisting knobs.

The outcome is a little rough, the timing may be a little sloppy, but for a first proper go at doing something on the Mk2, I'm pretty thrilled with it. The whole experience reaffirmed my decision to pick up the SP-404 Mk2 and may have cemented it as a central piece of my sampling workflow. Here, I thought I'd have to work it in, but it seems like maybe the MPC - my previous centerpiece - is the one that's going to have to find its place.

Oh, one more thing. While I have a general distaste for AI slop in a broad sense, I also acknowledge that we can't ignore it - whether for professional or personal reasons, it's here and we should at least understand it. For the cover image on this track, like I sometimes do, I generated a custom image using ChatGPT's latest and greatest image generation algo that was recently released. The vibe of the track is fairly dark, the times we're in are fairly dark, and that's the vibe I went with for the image. I grabbed a nice picture of Billie Holiday and gave it to ChatGPT as a reference and asked it to stick a joint in her mouth, aviators on her face, give her a beaming smile, and show WW3 raging behind her. The legendary Lady Day, in this image, is kind of a personification of how I'm trying to cope with the atmosphere we're currently in. Fitting.
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Secured my lifeline funds and had promised my lady that if we have to cash it (we probably will, but its safe from fluctuations for now until it's needed), that I'd set aside some money to split between us and do something nice for ourselves because its been a fuckin rough several months and we deserve it.

My part of it went to something I've had my eye on for a while: the Roland SP-404 Mk2. A friend of mine who I hold in really high regard has been a fan of this sampler for quite some time, going so far as to write an extensive guide on using it, a quick-start/cheatsheet booklet for the key combos and different modes, and hundreds of videos on YouTube (links to all of it at the bottom of this post if you wanna skip the rest and just check him out).

What draws me to the 404 is the fact that it comes packed with so many effects. I want to abandon the computer almost entirely for the first, let's say 70-90% of my workflow and I wanted the 404 as part-fx box, part-sample mangler. It came in this morning and all I've done so far is open the box and pull it out to get a feel for it. Feels solid, the pads feel nice, the non-pad buttons feel OK. I'm gonna test drive it later today and probably focus solely on working with it for the next few weeks just to learn the ins and outs, the key combinations/shortcuts, and whatever else. If I feel comfortable/confident enough with it, I might fly it solo for the next STBB which should be posted up tomorrow. At the very least, I'll definitely be throwing the source tracks in there and beating up on them as a learning exercise.

The plan is to essentially keep the MPC in play, arrange chops and drum patterns and whatever else there, feed certain tracks out to the 404 for heavy FXing/resampling/mangling, and then feed them back into the MPC for further chopping and arranging while also having the iPad handy to feed synth sounds and other stuff into the 404, to then finally land in the MPC. We'll see how it goes. Pretty hyped tbh.


Links to NearTao's blog and YT channel, as promised:
NearTao's Blog
NearTao's Youtube
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Some real interesting sample sources this week that I was eager to dig into. A couple of days into my chaotic, meandering, nonsenseical process, i was approach by one of the regulars and stewards of the STBB community to see if I wanted to collab on this one (if anyone ever reads this, check this man out - he can produce and he's nice on the mic: https://soundcloud.com/joagymshoe). We started by me sending him the 8 bar chop up I already had and we went back and forth a couple of times, but I felt bad that I'm a) indecisive and fickle (liable to chuck 3 days of work away and start over regularly), and b) a slow worker. I didn't want to drag him down so he took what we had come up with and went further with it and did some really dope shit with it.

With me bowing out semi-gracefully, I went back to it, picking up  where I left off. I generally find it really easy to find decent chops and string em together. My block usually comes once the core chops and drum pattern are laid down and I usually have no clue where to go from there. I fiddled around with Phaseplant to cook up a thick but not-overwhelming bass patch and bassline, spent about a day tweaking parameters and listening to the same 8 bars on repeat, trying to mold it into something that sounds OK. With about a full day left before the deadline, I moved on to a couple of important bits:automated FX for the "completed" 8 bar sequence so that I can throw some variation on it and a B sequence so the final product wasn't just the same 8 bars over and over with some FX sprinkled around.

I spent some time running the remaining tracks through UVR to rip out drums and vocals, scanning around for any microchops or interesting tones I could maybe flip into a keygroup and - unfortunately - ended up empty handed, so I went back to the original source track to see if I could squeeze anything else out of it. While there, I remembered that I had isolated a pretty slick organ sequence and had designs on a short series of brass stabs that, together, could form the basis of a dope B sequence with some bounce to it, so I went at it, chopped up, and assigned them to their own program. Laid them out in another 8 bar sequence with the original drums laying under it... and i spent the rest of the day adjusting ping pong looping on the longer organ note, and hating the drums, and liking the drums, and hating them, and then switching samples and before I knew it, it was late and I was tired and it was time to abandon the B sequence because there was no way I was going to gussy it up to any kind of satisfactory level...

So I'm left with an 8 bar sequence, no B sequence, and a heavy need for some kind of variation. Maybe you would call this cheating, it certainly feels a bit like that to me, but only a bit... Effectrix to the rescue (heh, yeah fuckin right)! I worked out a few sequences in Effectrix, and used the godawful automation in the MPC to move through them with Effectrix's pattern keys feature. Frankly, whole thing came out as hot garbage but I don't run away from my failures. I embrace them. So I uploaded the track - I've been surprised before by uploading something I thought was bad that ended up getting a warmer reception than I expected, but I have no such hopes for this one...

 




I sent it over to Joa mainly for a laugh and he said I should probably mark it as a non-entry. I figured I must have missed one of the rules, but no - he actually wanted to submit the collab. He had stretched and tweaked it so well that I didn't recognize my (originally) awful contribution and dude ended up turning it into something really slick. Turned my original chop arrangement which isn't bad on its own (and which you can hear very clearly in my non-entry submission) into an atmospheric layer, took my baseline and slowed it way down and gave it actual character, and took the stem I sent that came out of a keygroup I made from one of the more interesting samples and just put it all together and made, frankly, gold. A turd, polished into an unrecognizable gem... check this shit out, it's wild...

 




The Westside Gunn acapella was just the cherry on top.

The real takeaway here, as always, is that I need to zoom out sometimes and think differently about what I'm working on. A lot of the time, I'll put in multiple days of work on a beat, realize its trash, burn it all down, start over, and end up with something actually enjoyable - I didn't follow that process this time, partly because time got away from me, partly because I wasn't honest with myself earlier on and kept pushing on the original idea, and partly because I let my own creative process get away from me.

 

Oh, well. Still a lot to learn - that's for sure.
 

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I found a dope community that has been doing weekly beat battles, without stopping, for 940 weeks at the time of this post (week 941 is currently underway).

Last week's challenge/rules were that we had to use only samples from a specific SoundCloud user's account - Fr0ggy5. Fr0ggy5's got some really off-the-wall shit going on on their page. Lots of really interesting textures and rhythmic elements in their post history that immediately make you think shit like, "Damn, if I pitched this down and chopped it here and here, I bet I could make a nasty beat out of this." Outside drums were allowed, but nothing else - just sounds from Fr0ggy5's account where they've graciously and generously set everything to allow downloads and have a standing invitation for anyone to use what they've created.

Had an absolute blast with this one. Because I'm practically a week out from putting this together, I barely remember the specific steps and creative moves I made, so I'm just going to mention the one thing that sticks out most: Trying to make a bass out of a single piano note can be a real bitch, but I think I managed OK.

For future posts, I'll try to spend some time dissecting what I did in greater detail, but for this one... well, this'll have to suffice.
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Was digging around SoundCloud and saw someone's profile had a "Dreamwidth" link in their social links section. Intrigued, I clicked it and found this site... what looks to me like some sort of Livejournal clone type of deal. Been a long, long time since I used Livejournal, but I have fond, sepia-toned memories of it. I opened a new tab, googled the name, and saw the Create Account link was actually purple - well I'll be goddamned. After a couple of failed login attempts, I managed to get in and now I think maybe I should start logging my efforts at music production and sound design and abusing other people's original works by pitching and EQing and chopping and mangling and glitching and...

It's been a strange few years.

I found music production & sound design around when I started getting burned out on tech work in mid 2020 and became absolutely obsessed. It was an escape. Ignorant of any kind of nuance or educated view of the subject, it looked to me like an infinite playground with infinite possibilities. It was the perfect thing to throw myself into to desperately run away from real life. I was forgetting to eat, I was staying up late watching massive YouTube playlists to better understand EQing and compression and time signatures and MIDI. There's a lot I still don't know, and a lot I need a cheatsheet for, but from 2020 to late 2022/early 2023, it became a healing balm, a sanctuary, a fucking fortress in which I could climb to the top of one of the turrets and watch my problems raging and clamoring for attention down below, and spit bomb them and make rude gestures or yell profanities at them and shake my fist, taunting them to even try climbing up to reach me.

In 2023, the burnout got so bad that even this - the one hobby or passion or whatever in my life that survived longer than a few months - seemed like a chore, so I stopped. The MPC collected dust, the DAWs bumped by major version numbers and I wasn't there to marvel at all of the quality of life features they added or to be excited as fuck for this softsynth or that FX plugin.

I sat and I suffered silently all the way until I got notice that I had 2 months left before I would be unemployed (along with the rest of my team and several adjacent teams). It was a really good job. It was reliable. It paid well. I had a relatively prestigious title some degree of bragging rights.

I fucking hated it.

I had been viciously fighting severe career burnout for roughly 4 years at that point. Four years of burnout will do funny things to a person (the real deal, not the hyperbolic "I hate my job" variant). I needed the paycheck but I didn't want the job; a job that I had ironically dreamed of for years. Goodbyes were said, severances were paid out, and by the time the end of the year rolled around, I had somehow finally found peace (even with my bank account screaming at me to do something).

In December of 2024, a friend (and one much more knowledgeable and more clever than me in regards to production) sort of pushed me back by dangling a beat battle in front of me. I said, "Eh, fuck it. Why not?" and I rekindled my endless love for this stuff. And I haven't stopped yet, since returning. And I couldn't be happier.

I'm probably getting ready to cash out my very modest retirement account because the job market is hot garbage and a guy has to fucking eat and pay rent. It's not helping that the current political climate is pecking away at that account. Forcing me every day to say, "Maybe today is the day," so as to avoid even further losses while the markets spiral. My last lifeline, that retirement account, has lost 2 months of rent and food in just the last week or two.

But, strangely... I couldn't be happier. I've been reunited with some of the greatest loves of my life: the sampler, the piano roll, the oscillator and the filter and the... you get the idea (who's even reading this swill, anyway?).

If I can remember to, and I can keep up any semblance of ambition, I'm going to try to use this journal as a log of my efforts and a place to share what I create and what I learn. It could've been any blogging or journal platform, but I like the spontaneity of rediscovering some obscure site I forgot about ages ago and throwing myself into using it. Has it even been ages? Or months? Or just weeks? Who cares...
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